Friday, October 16, 2009

stopnow..

i have a new interest now..
i don't feels like blogging anymore.
i now have a place to put my joy,tears and anger..
hoyyeh!! hoyyeh!! hoyyeh!!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

shout out


Ayin..my soulmate. u always there for me. a true definition of partner-in-crime. dun worry too much about your future. if you are meant to be. nothing can change that. just go with the flow while at the same time keep on praying and ENJOY your life. oh..try to stop teasing me with my sengal attitude!!
Yatt...you are one wonderful girl. kau la kwn aku yg sgt 'loyal' to your other half. so while kau bkn in loyal mode,lets enjoy our single life together before you get busy with your NEW life later. he's out there somewhere but i'm here..always here..so,let's go for movie,swimming,futsal,mamak,jln2,go crazy and what-not..we had our fun and let's continue doing it!we are married to each other remember?
Elin..knowing you is a blessing. credits to yatt. you have your sengal k.ros around but it didn't keep us away from having fun. k.ros is a good person. mainly sbb die xkisah melayan kesengalan aku, yatt n ko secara berkumpulan. treasure him. love his good and bad.
K.ros..sila layan/jaga/sayang elin. sbb aku tau mana nak carik ko if u hurt her.heheh..
Man..you are like a brother i never had. at the same time you are a friend yg sgt rugi kalau hilang. no matter what. thank you.
zafrul..you are one nice guy. but your words that you describe me to your gf is ridiculous. "SYG TP X DPT" WTH? treat her nice. remember you choose her. go for it.we'll remain friends. i prefer the idea of us as a friend more than anything.
Apink/Awazsayang/Apek/Airdy..sayang korang sampai mati. xmau hilang korang. yet xleh lepak slalu like dulu2..sheeshh...
Izra..i rasa sheila da start giving you a green light sign. go for it,babe!!
ezany@bay..where on earth are you??sibuk bercinta sampai x igt scandal lama ke?? hate you!heh..
Opah..i'm sorry of what happen to you right now. be strong. i'm around if you need me. anytime.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

ishq


muhabbat hay mushkil karnaa
woh hay kiyoon log sar anjaan dena paagal cheez kab woh hayn andaar ishq
yaa log hayn munsif paagal

Sunday, September 6, 2009

i wish Ramadhan never end

aku da berbulan xbole tido mlm, so i always wide awake during sahur.i called zafrul this morning for wake up cal...then zafrul ckp,u...tinggal 2 minggu je lg puasa...suddenly aku rasa mcm suffocate...aku literally xleh bernafas...i am so happy during this ramadhan...aku try my best utk x gaduh ngan mama or even adik beradik aku...aku try to refrain myself from doing anything bad...to be frank,the reason i did that not only because ini bln Ramadhan,tp sbb bulan ini lah papa ada dgn kami...aku selalu ckp sorang2 (read:i am not crazy) as if aku borak ngan papa...i remember,while studying at 4am, i said.."pa,kalau la Haniz pass paper ni...Haniz belanja diri sendiri kambing!!" papa tau aku x mkn kambing,and aku tau papa suka kambing!! sgt...aku sgt bahagia Ramadhan ini...pelik..sbb Ramadhan ini papa takde dgn aku,tp aku sgt treasure every second thinking that he is with me...tapi...Ramadhan almost over...aku rasa mcm nk stop the time...so that Syawal never comes...sorry...aku tau salah utk aku fikir camni...i can't help it. Tapi xpe, aku sudah tahu cara utk bersabar. Maka, aku akan bersabar dgn dugaan tuhan ini.aku akan cuba utk tak sedih bila Ramadhan pergi.Aku akan cube tak nangis bila malafazkan takbir menyambut Syawal dan menghantar papa pergi ke "tempat" dia.Aku akan doakan papa pergi dlm keadaan tenang dan handsome seperti biasa. Aku akan sabar tunggu "masa" aku akan jumpa papa.aku sudah tak kisah tidak mimpikan papa. aku pernah mengadu, menangis dekat Tuhan, ayin ngan amir sbb aku x mimpikan papa. tapi sekarang aku cuma perlu bersabar. sbb aku yakin Tuhan akan tetap jumpa kan aku dgn papa.Aku cuma perlu yakin dgn kuasa Tuhan, tunaikan tanggungjawab aku sbg hamba dan sabar. kan? tapi aku masih mengharap Syawal lambat lagi...Haish..susah betul utk Haniz berubah!!

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

sick of being sick



among other things yg aku admire dekat papa was his willingness to do everything sincerely...
mintakla kat papa apa sahaja...selagi hanya perlu guna tenaga...dia selalu akan ckp OK...
contohnya, after his long busy day and suddenly terasa cam nakgi 7E beli air coke in the middle of the night...cakap saja dekat papa...he will make a goofy face and suddenly tgk die dah siap pegang kunci motor and ask,"nak pegi x?" (pjg aku explain..huhu)
so,now that he's gone...aku cuba utk jdk mcm papa...cuba utk buat semua selagi aku terdaya...tp aku x mcm papa,papa x complain...aku kdg2 complain!! hehe...i was tested few weeks before Ramadhan when jaja got sick and requiring us to make few trips to Sabak-KL-Sabak-KL (i lost count!) and then off to Gemas to settle some errands...then my body cannot tahan already...i was hit with fever,flu,cough,sorethroat,headache and body pains..went to the clinic twice as i found out i was allergic with the antibiotic and give me a hell-like pain!!!
then come friday where i was supposed to fetch Jaja,and after taking the meds i was so sure that i can drive to fetch Jaja as promised...but alhamdulillah i collapse upon arriving at umah cik ya.i can't imagine if i passed out while driving! then i admit that i wasn't as strong as papa..don't get me wrong here,i am not complaining or anything...it is my responsibility to do whatever that i did before...i know i was also sick due to my eating habits and my insomnia problem..i just wish that i am stronger physically and mentally if not like him..ALMOST? can? haha..i'm ok now...except for the flu and cough that refuse to go away...and missing him badly...especially during the fever and having to drive myself to the clinic was more painful than the physical pain itself...i kinda missing having that GUY to send me to the clinic when i am sick..people,u might be bored to have to read this..tell you the truth,i just wish to ease the feels of missing him like this...cause it hurts more than getting sick...

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

best of you..




"@!#$ la ko pink..ko claim ko kwn aku..ko claim ko syg aku..mana ko when i need u hah??"
"demm u..ko yg tinggalkan aku.."
"apsal ko xnk carik aku?"
"sbb aku xnk terhegeh2 kat ko..ko yg call aku out of nowhere marah2"
"ko ego..say it!!"
"ye..aku ego.."
"ko mmg keji ko tau x.."
"kalo aku keji aku x pick up call ko..aku xkan call blk kan??"

despite whatever happened,i found my old friend back..
it's been almost 6 months i guess we haven't talk to each other..
but now..i won't stop at anything for any friendship that i have.
pink..i'm sorry and thanks for still being my friend!!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

day 1


aku gerak gi cherating with literally EMPTY heart...
aku drive with 50-50 feelings to go...
tp on the way tu...aku baca doa...
"Ya,Allah...u have every rights utk xnk lindung aku sepanjang aku gerak ni...
tp aku mintak kalau kau sudi lg pandang aku as hamba mu...
kau lindunglah aku dr kebodohan dlm membuat keputusan,dr hambamu lain yg berniat jahat,dr makhlus halus ciptaanmu,dr bencana...sbb semuanya dtg dr kau...kalau apa2 terjadi...aku tetap redha..tp aku mintak kau tlg la tgk2 kan mama tu...heh"
so aku pon drive la...aku drive sgt slow...sbb aku xkejar pape pon...
sampai kan pakcik polis yg tgh buat speed trap kat bwh jambatan pon aku bole lambai!!(bangga sbb aku bwk slow...tp pakcik polis tu xtau aku xde lesen!!!hahahaha...)
aku trus drive gi KT sbb aku lapa n aku nk mkn kopok losong...aku minum ngan air sirap...
sedap gile...pas2 aku jln2 cket then aku patah blk cherating...aku mmg plan nakg KT tp sepatutnye bkn on 1st day...huhu...otw gi cherating...aku pening pk nk tido mana...aku smpai kat camp site...tp bile aku ckp nk sewa tent,pakcik tu mrh aku...ckp bahaya lah...nk ujan lah...tolak rezeki tol pakcik tu...tp mungkin Allah menjauhkan aku dr "kebodohan membuat keputusan", maka aku trus gi tmpat makcik duyung yg keji...(aku mmg benci die sejak beberapa tahun lepas...),tp aku just nk bg makcik duyung excited ada customer je!!aku masuk dlm utk buat uturn je...pas2 aku gi check in kt tempat lain...aku crk bilik yg kiri kanan ada org..sbb aku penakut...time aku tgh terkial2 nk bukak pintu...minah saleh bilik sebelah tegur aku...(nama die elodi)french..."alone?"..."err...yep!u?"..."with partner..you from here?" aku da start bosan...sbb aku nk kejar sembahyang and aku penat gile..."no...see...i have to pray for a while...talk to u later,ya!" mmg la aku xkan kua semata nk ckp ngan die kn...dhla aku xpaham sgt ape die ckp!!aku kan MELAYU....heheh....da setel sume,aku amik buku "aku terima nikahnye..." pegi kat batu2 tepi laut...dgn air coke...perasan foreigner cket la time tu...eventho baca buku bertajuk itu...huhu...baru 2 chapter aku baca...elodi dtg...tp kali ni die bwk gang...didier(partner die),jaeden ngan tedric...aku suspect jaeden ngan tedric gay..kali ni aku paham ape deyrang ckp...sbb jaeden ngan tedric american...kitorang plan nakgi dinner...tp aku tinggalkan deyrang,sbb aku nakgi amek gambar serombong api kat kerteh tu...huhu...tp aku end up mkn kat tmpat aku,ayin,man ngan amir penah mkn time trip kitorang dtg sini...time tu aku cam sedey sbb tis time aku mkn sorang...smpai je kat chalet,aku nmpak elodi kat depan pintu bilik aku...ape kebenda la minah ni nak????aku senyum...then die ckp,"wanna play ball?"..."oh,yeah!!!" time tu aku x sedar aku ni pendek....hasilnye...deyrang confuse aku ngan bola...sbb dgn aku2 skali tergolek kat pasir tu...didier tolak aku kat laut tgh2 mlm tu...aku emo gile!!!lepas main kitorang lepak kat luar...aku minum air mineral...deyrang minum air kencing setan...time borak...elodi tanya aku asal mana sbb kot2 la die nak dtg kan...aku ckp,"i'm from chemor...u know where?"...sume pn buat muke kayu
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